Berbicara tentang Tabiat

i bite my nails and my friends always yell and stare at me when i happened to do that stupid things. it's disgusting, and surely, it disgusts me, but i just cannot help it. my mom keep reminding me, for if i keep biting my nails, it will soon died (my nails, of course) and will never grow again.

i started to bite my nails since i was in Standard 3 (or is it Standard 5?) and it became my 'tabiat' (mana kamus bergerak aku?) since then. but it doesn't happen all the time, thank God, for it will 'suddenly' happened if i am troubled, stressed and worried.

i once read that it is one of mental problems' symptoms. it was not until my mom told me, if i keep biting my nails, there's nobody wants to propose me, for engagement as they will run if they see my nails. haha! i regained my awareness, i want to get married, ok! i stopped biting them, for quite a time...

until recently, i started to bite them again. i was stressed by my recent relationship. i was depressed, totally depressed, i didn't enjoy my life anymore. it was then, when i think of my mother, i regained my senses (secara tiba-tiba-macam magik harry potter-hahaha). i was brought back to life.

i stared at my nails (oh,shit!-err, damn!) and this is it! i cannot stand it anymore! nak pergi butik tak mampu...

ku hanya mampu berserah. beli je la nail polisher, wanna go for pedicure-manicure of course, i don't have that much amount of money. huhu. oh, lupa, i bite my fingernails only ok!

i managed to stop, finally. sometimes, if i feel like biting them, i just put my fingers on my lips and think about having beautiful fingernails during my engagement and wedding ceremony. hahaha. it's still like an addiction for me, but then, i keep motivated by the situation. friends, and family.

i am lucky, i guess. self-motivation, it's what i like the most. i feel down, sometimes, but when it is time to recover, i found myself back.

just hope this will be forever....