You...

Sometimes rasa macam I rather face with frustrations than to be hanging. Owh, it hurts. Tapi tak pe lah. Tuhan akan bagi kita menda yang kita perlukan, bukan benda yang kita nak, bila tiba masanya. Saya tak kisah pun sebenarnya. Walaupun kecewa tu tetap ada. I don't want to jump into conclusions too soon. I need to hear from his own mouth. Walaupun saya rasa macam dah tahu. But then, it's better to let this be. Ow, man, walaupun saya layan dia macam kawan, I do miss him a lot.

Tapi nasib baik ini yang jadi. Nasib baik ini yang berlaku. At least, we don't have anything between us. I mean, never any special ties between us. Kalau tak lagi parah kot. Aah. Mesti orang lain kata senangnya saya nak minat kat orang kan? Tak la. Sapa kata. I took 3years plus plus nak minat kat orang tau.
Hahah. Saya memang cheeky sikit. Sikit je..

Mmm... Tapi still kan, saya wondering je. Kenapa dia tak pick up phone. Kenapa dia tak balas mesej saya. Kenapa dia tak text saya. Ye lah, we agreed upon each other. Kitorang kawan je. Saya bukan awek dia, kitorang tak couple. So, saya call dia macam kawan call la. Saya nak kitorang jadi macam dulu. No heart feelings. Because I do think he's a good friend. Did I do something really wrong? We agreed to be best friends.

I never demand any thing than that. I mean, saya tak mintak dia beritahu apa yang jadi dalam hidup dia setiap hari. That explains why saya tak cari dia setiap hari. Saya cuma contact dia lebih kurang 4 5 hari sekali. You see, saya tak nak kitorang terpesong dari seorang landasan seorang kawan. I don't want to lose a friend for a stupid feeling.

Then, this is what happened. Suddenly dia hilang macam tu je. And I was like... It's all blurred. Mmm..

Awak, as a friend, saya tak nak hilang awak. I think you are a good friend. Tapi kalau itu yang awak nak, then it's ok. I'll deal with it. Thank you very much.