Kena Curi.

Haish, handphone saya dibawa lari oleh Kei Salamantini atau Amir Rashad Mustaffa si nonokan tu. Nonok, pulang balik la handphone tu.

Siapa lah hamba Allah yang tanya soalan tu yek. I wonder. Haha. Kei, kalau tak nak bagi jugak hand phone saya tu, saya cakap saya yang minat awak kang. Hah, taktik nak dapat handphone tu balik.

Bukan dia baca blog ni. Hihihi.

Kepada peminat Kei di luar sana, saya nak cakap sorry kalau saya terpaksa buat begitu untuk dapatkan handphone saya tu. Tapi ini ucapan saya untuk awak :

"Saya rasa saya tahu siapa awak."

Ceh. Hehe. Kei, sampai mati pun aku takkan cakap siapa orang tuh!

I'm torn.

I miss you so much suddenly.

Hope you are happy with her.

And hope that Allah will grant me happiness.

It's hard when it's love.

It's already three months since you walked away.

But you still do not get out from my mind.

P/S : I know I can make it. Give me time, I will pull through. I will forget you.

Apa cinta?

Seorang hamba Allah ni kata dia minat saya masa saya sekolah dulu sebab badan saya fit. Dia suka tengok badan fit. Biarlah orang kata saya tak lawa pun.

Semalam ada kenalan kata saya cantik sebab tengok gambar saya kat facebook sedangkan dia tak pernah jumpa saya lagi. Dia tak tahu ke sekarang zaman teknologi? Boleh potong kerat maa. Dan sebab cantik (kononnya) nak jadi bf. Kenal pun apa tak lagi. Kalau kenal tu lain cerita la. =P

Saya bungkus nasi semalam. Balik-balik rumah, bukak bungkusan, atas nasi ada paper. NO TELEFON somebody.

Hmm... I wonder la kan.

Adakah cinta akan semurah dan sesenang itu?

P/S : Yang tengah-tengah tu macam ada can je. Sebab badan dia best, and dia good-looking, sebab dia kadet. Hah, kau! Cakap orang! Hahahaha.

Awak, Did I lose my love to someone better?

Hanya Ini yang Mampu Saya Ucapkan. Sungguh.

Unpleasant sight of something.

Terima kasih sahabat. Kerana menyedarkan saya betapa murahnya erti persahabatan yang saya hulurkan selama ni.

Saya mengerti. Terima kasih, sahabat. Thing ini bukan human being. Thing ini alien agaknya.

Saya takkan marah. Saya takkan kata apa-apa. Kerana saya tahu, Allah tahu.

Maaf, dan terima kasih, sahabat.

Biarlah Allah tahu. Hanya Allah tahu. Kerana anda tidak perlu penjelasan dari saya. Kerana anda lebih tahu diri saya.

Terima kasih kerana menganggap saya sebagai teman.

P/S : It is not that I don't need you for anything. But I don't need anything from you. Because "sahabat" never wanted anything from her friends. I don't really need "things" from a friend.

Terima kasih.

Maaf Babe, Aku Terasa...

And here I am, once again, I'm torn into pieces. Yes, buddies. I'm torn because of you. Did you know how my heart hurts when you said like that? As if I'm not your friends, as if I'm not concern about you at all. And tell me what, did you really concern about me all this while? Did you really, really, really think that I am one of your friends? Did you actually accept me as your friend? Ask yourself.

I got call from **** said that class was not being cancelled, at 10.15 a.m! And guess what, I did not take my bath yet at that time! I was not prepared with my presentation AT ALL, I did not finish it AT ALL. But then, I have to rush to the faculty without preparing myself with any slide. ANY SLIDE AT ALL.

I was rushing at that time. I'm panicked, yes, and I arrived at 10.45 a.m at the faculty. I entered the classroom with Mr. Black in front of the class, waiting for the students to come. I opened my laptop as soon as I sat at the chair, finishing my simplest slide with Mr. Black who is in front of me. And guess what, I asked about you! I asked **** and **** about you, I asked whether you know about the class that is not being cancelled. And **** nodded his head. So, I guess you did not want to attend the class because you want to finish your assignments. That's fine with me, because I have things to do, but yet, I still remember about you!

And after the class had finished, I met you. I called you twice, but you ignored my call. Okeh. But then, I am really-really-really upset. Both of you were mad at us. Sampai keluar kata-kata macam ni :

"Macam nilah kawan kan."

Okeyh. You blamed me. For not telling you anything. And I apologized. Deeply in my heart, I apologized to you because I am being ignorant. I'm not a good friend. I'm sorry.

But it's an irony kan, when a long time ago, when there was a replacement class one day, and we both did not know anything about it, but did any one of you tried to call us and tell us about it? Did we blamed you for that? We did not know anything, and I realized that it was my fault of being ignorant, because I did not asked about that thing, but did we blamed you? Did we mad at you?

How irony when your housemate did not tell you anything, yet you mad at me, you blamed me, 100%.

I am upset with you. Because I thought we were friends. And friends did not accusing. They respect each other, they listened to each other. So, if I am not your friend, up to you. I am tired of giving myself to please everyone in my life. So, I should give up upon you. I'm sorry for being not a good friend.

Yours Truly.

P/S : I'll take everything, my friend.

Sape2 je lah.

Ye, saya tahu, saya amat sunyi. Saya tahu saya tengah bersedih. Saya tahu saya tengah jealous dengan kawan-kawan saya sebab ada boipren bak kata ibu saya.

Tapi kan, tak perlu lah nak distribute no saya, or pakat-pakat nak kacau saya tengok saya layan korang ke tak, kan.

Sebab saya bukan DESPERATE sangat lagi.

Dugaan.

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