Macam-Macam

I just made a new spectacles!

Thank God my mum bought me a new one, and i am no longer look like a teenager stuck in the middle-age woman face. Abang Shikh said once that I look like a 25 years old lady, oh, please, that's totally not me!

I am back home, relieved that finally I'm back, but exhausted of getting the job done. I have to fill the loan form, tidy my room, and still, I can't meet my friends yet. I miss them.

I don't know why, I'm getting angrier to myself for can't actually do nothing for my grandma. Yup, my grannny, who always stirs my nerves, but I do love her. I love her very much, although she kept me tired of hearing her babbles all day, accusing me for all the thing I'm not. For God's sake, she IS my granny no matter what, and I AM mad to 'somebody' who I think don't have my respect any longer. Come ON! she is YOUR mother! how could you do that to her! dah lah tak balik hari raya, and now she is sick, have your respect, she IS your responsibility! nobody wants you to take care of her, if you don't want to, because WE ALL still ada, tapi have sense la!

benci betul! ridiculous! datang tengok kejap je? nak jaga? MUJUR!

I don't know what to do. please la. even me, myself, aku sakit hati dengan apa yang tok cakap pun, aku ada lagi respect, ada lagi perasaan sayang, ada lagi perasaan tanggungjawab yang aku rasa.
what about you? pray that your own son will NEVER do that to you some day in the future. tolonglah, sakit hati betul.

please and please remember, SYURGA TU BAWAH TAPAK KAKI IBU.

huh. if you want me to be disrespectful, try me, and you will get it. my mom gives me good teaching, and she told me to respect you, but think, how am I gonna respect you if you don't respect how's your mother's feelings? geram la.

mmm... setel.

I'm getting stronger day by day. I don't know why, things seems to be better. small things don't easily influenced my emotions, like I'm used to. I'm not easily upset, and my whole life's changing right now. I should be thankful, thank God, for experiences teach me how to be strong, and life gives me lessons.

how I wish I don't think too much. people think that I think too much and they keep telling me again and again. people, I am tired, yes, I am tired to hear all of you repeating the same thing to me. Yet, I just don't know how to stop thinking. If I can stop think, I assure you, that at that time, I am no longer breathing. I just can't stop my mind functioning. yeah, I know, I put too much effort to my brain. Pity you, brainy.

Abang Hafiz
My mom has a staff who I called Abang Hafiz. err, I actually called him En. Hafiz, but my mom always addressed him as Abang Hafiz when she mentioned him to me. he is such a soft-spoken, goody-two-shoes, (boy-next-door?) person. Dia cute, except for the part yang dia tu kecik je, rendah daripada aku. comel comel comel.

Masa balik hari tu, aku duduk dengan dia kat belakang. and when we go to Chow Kit to but tudung, pity him, duduk je tepi hotel tunggu my mom, aku and Mak Cik Bedah cari tudung. hohoho. memang baik. aku rasa macam untung je sapa yang jadi isteri dia. hahaha.

my friends said that I am such a player. come on, muka macam ni mana ada muka player. hahaha. nanti la aku cerita detail lagi. ngantok.

daa daa...

esok nak jumpa mas dengan aswa jap!