Attracted with...

Semakin kuat kita mengejar dan mengawal, maka semakin jauh ia daripada kita, dan semakin terasalah kekecewaan yang dirasai, sebaliknya semakin banyak yang kita fokus dan lakukan pada diri kita, semakin bermakna hidup yang kita lalui...

sama macam mak aku cakap.

" Kalau nak sayang orang, kenalah sayang diri sendiri dulu."

Haite.

Super Love

SUpER jUNIOr

I'm loving them the more I know about them. Bukan secara individu, tetapi secara kumpulan. oh, I admit I love some people in this group exquisitely, but I prefer them in a group. they are enjoyable, adorable and more lively when they are in a group. You know, you can see almost everything in the circle of 13 person. different things on different person. that makes them very special.

oh, I love him too. " Nama saya RAIN". Hahah.

seriously, I'm started to involve with him recently. he's Cute! really cute! for me la...hehehe... TEPPEI KOIKE.

SEKIAN..HOHO...

Psychiatric Disorder

Dependent Personality You have a hard time breaking away from a relationship. You hate being alone and you feel that you must have a relationship. You have a hard tim making even the simplest of decisons and you will often subordinate your needs to keep your significant other with you. In otherwords, you are co-dependent even in a toxic relationship.

This Feelings...

Yang terindah
Terlukis di bibir mu
Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu
Sebegitu
Pudar kah sudah cinta yang ku beri
Berwarna warni segala
Yang dijanjikan ia

Usah biarku bersendirian
Usah biar hati mu di tawan
Usah biar diri ku di sini
Seorang menunggu tanpa teman

Usah lepas genggaman tangan mu
Usah biar semua berlalu
Usah terlupa perasaan hati
Pertama kali kita bertemu
Usah lepaskan

Tak mudah ku melupa segala yang berlalu
Ku ingin selalu bersama mu

Usah biarku bersendirian
Usah biar hati mu di tawan
Usah biar diri ku di sini
Seorang menunggu tanpa teman

Ku tak peduli apa sebabnya
Engkau dan dia harus bersama
Mendungnya langit bila berkata
Kita patutnya masih bercinta
Usah lepaskan
Usah lepaskan

I love this song. That's all.

ouh, aku teringat, aku pernah sukakan nama Naqibah Nazmal untuk jadi nama pena aku. ermm.. I wonder kat mana abang Fadhil sekarang. i just wanna thank him for good memories masa Perkampungan Penulis Muda dulu. haha. aku pernah cakap aku nak guna nama pena ni kat dia. now, i don't know whether it will be accomplished or not.

Luqman Al - Hakim.

Rabiatul Insyirah.

Iskandal Zulkarnain.

I'm considering Rabiatul Adawiyah too.. but it still 50-50.

these name are for my children some day. okay tak?

err...

for my future husband, lau you all dah ada nama yang you all nak, you all mesti ambik all of this name first into your list. hahaha... selfish betul.

Emptiness...

*sigh.

you know sometimes i can feel the emptiness of my life. i can feel it become hollow from day to another day. i walk along the path of my life, and i'm not enjoying it. i try to convince myself to live my life to the fullest, i try to do things i loved some times ago, but i cannot feel the satisfaction of doing it anymore. sometimes, it became sooooo stupid and i turned to hate it.

i don't know when it started to happen. i try to satisfy every single person i knew, without thinking for myself. when people ask me something or ask me to actually do something for them, i just follow. although i'm not happy to do it, i feel obliged to help my friend. but after some time, i realised, it is not an obligation for me and i have rights to refuse from helping them. but it's too late. when i'm actually not helping them, i will stuck in guilt whenever i bumped into them.

loyalty is a problem for me. some people feel burdened if i'm "stuck" to them. i believe my dependence to them really smashed and wrecked our relationship. they feel i'm an immatured person because of that. sometimes i'm not enjoying their company, i feel like they are nothin to me, but they are my friends, don't they? so i make sure i will follow them, in every single moment, whether it is sweet or bitter.

i am no longer feel the state of happiness and satisfaction in my life. i don't know why, it seems that every single thing i've done or am doing it, will turn into ashes and man, i feel nothing. my life is a real nothing, and i don't know why is this happen. i really want a real company, but when it comes to appreciating it, i failed. in the middle of the crowd, i feel lonely, but when i'm stuck in my own world, i want to free myself from that burden.

my life is not enjoyable anymore. is that something i can do to free myself from this feeling?

i don't want to be matured if i cannot feel the taste of happiness and satisfaction any longer.

i'm no longer appreciating my life.

deep inside, i really wanna scream. HELP ME TO FREE MYSELF FROM ME!!!

you got what i mean? never mind.

This is Very Interesting!

Man Verses Women ( Credits to Igniz ) Thanks for cheering my day.

A. Why men are like computers..

1. They are useless until you turn them on.
2. They have loads of data but are still clueless.
3. As soon as you pick one a better model comes on the market!

B. Why women are like computers..

1. No one really understands them.
2. All of your errors can be detected and will be stored in their memory.
3. You find yourself spending all your money on accessories for them!

C. Three reasons why cats are better than men..

1. Cats love you however you look like.
2. You can stroke a cat without it thinking about sex.
3. You don't mind when your cat chases after birds, not you!

D. Four reasons why dogs are better than women..

1. Dogs obey when you shout at them.
2. Dogs don't do shopping.
3. You can give away your dogs to children.
4. Any guy can get a cute dog!

E. Why don't men often show their true feelings?

1. Because actually they don't have any.

F. What is the difference between a woman and a magnet?

1. Magnets have a positive side!

G. Why are married men fatter than single ones?

1. Singles come home, see nothing's in the fridge and go to bed.
2. Married come home, see nothing's in bed and go to the fridge!

H. What do you call a woman who knows where her husband is every night?

1. Widow (because her husband is always at one place; the graveyard).

I. The IDEAL man does not smoke, does not drink, does not flirt, does not go out late at night. In short....DOES NOT exist.

J. MENopause, MENstrual pain, MENtal illness, HYS(his)terectomy...ever noticed how women's problems start with men??

K. Conversation between a wife and a husband:

Wife: I wish I was a newspaper so I'll be in your hands every day.
Husband: I wish that too, so I can change you daily!

L. Confession from a wife towards her husband:

" I'd like to compare you with a nice cold of watermelon juice, beautiful colour, perfect taste, really perfect, and when the glass is empty..I just take the next one!"

M. What a man says to a woman he doesn't like:

"I look at the stars..they are beautiful..I look at the moon..it makes me feel so good..I look at you..I..I...I'd rather look at the stars and the moon again..."

N. What a woman says to a man she doesn't like:

"When I look at the stars I see you..when I look at the moon I see you..when I look at the sun I see you...again?? Well get the **** out of my way!"

O. When a man wants to make fool out of a woman, he'll say:

"What's the difference between cute and feeling cute? You don't know? Well...cute is me, and feeling cute is you!"

P. When a woman wants to make fool out of a man, she'll phone and say:

"Hey, would you like to come over here? No one's in the house."
The man went to her house, and no one was there.

Q. Mobile phones are the only things in live of which men talk about having the smallest.

R. Women are like a phone call; nice to chat with, but if you press the wrong button, the line's gone.

S. Bride's father hands a note to the groom:

"Goods sold are not returnable."

The groom gave another note back to the father:

"Contract void if seal is broken."

T. When a guy tells you that he loves you from the bottom of his heart, be careful. For this may mean that there's still enough space for another girl on top.

U. Man says it's great. Man says it's fine. Nine months later he says it's not mine!

V. A successful man is the one who makes more money than he can spend. A successful woman is the one who finds him.

# Funny. I like it.

Love Really Hurts

I can’t breathe

I’ve lost my direction

My memory’s breaking into pieces

But you’re so calm because it has nothing to do with you

Do you even want to take away the last bit?

Sorry, really sorry

Even when I say this I feel apologetic

In a short while, we might lose everything

Love really hurts, it hurts too much

I keep smiling yet crying endlessly

Love is really funny, really frightening

Please, stop it now, if only I was able to wake up from my dream

Don’t forget, please don’t forget

Even if it’s all lies, it’s okay

In a short while, we might lose everything

Love really hurts, it hurts too much

I keep smiling yet crying endlessly

Love is really funny, really frightening

Please, stop it now, if only I was able to wake up from my dream

When I’m longing for, and calling out your name

Once anxiously and timidly loving you

Want to believe

Stop breathing

Resist the tears

I keep smiling yet crying endlessly

Love is really funny, really frightening

Please, stop it now, if only I was able to wake up from my dream

# I wonder why is it so true. Love really hurts, and pain it gives is very untolerable. so why do you love?

shit, it's happened again. You know when we are in pain, it really is calmer and better than when we hurt our feelings. see, why am I write like crap and give a damn on this shitty shit love? love is real nothing. it's just a dogma when someone said love make people gay, it is totally unacceptable.

you will know when you love somebody and not being loved by them. OK?

IS THAT CLEAR ENOUGH FOR YOU?

yes, i'm totally perplexed and insane.